Therapeutic thoughts

Been very lucky to live in some of the most beautiful parts of the United Kingdom .

Met some wonderful people generous and warm

And genuinely never judged

I’d thought had cracked it ,was feeling bit more relaxed looking forward to a calmer less anxious future

This diabetic mess up has left me feeling so poorly have

All because people who can afford to bulk buy diabetics medication for weight loss.is appalling specially when they don’t suffer weight or diabetic problems .

I really thought our future would be better

Not to be judged on what u look like or how much cash u can splash

But to care about how you can make a difference to those around u

Those who maybe strangers who need a bit of support ,I suppose I thought humanity was about giving back and not necessarily taking at the expense of others who may need help,love a hug be it virtual or to know the fortunate people care.

Am not tarring everyone with the same brush

There are really good people who in a quiet way and anonymous way to great deeds ,

It feels like some times humans can act like sheep example!!

Hey babe the latest trend is to gorge on the medication of those in need

Doesn’t matter if those little people we don’t know may suffer

As long as we look our finest and can promote how fantastic it makes us look and feel

Hey what’s the problem the weak will get left behind it’s the way of the circle of life , is it not ?

No it’s not!

God help those who suffer from dementia or cancer or motor neuron disease that a wonder drug for them may bring added effects for the healthy of longevity or how it may make u look younger

It takes just one selfish person to trend with attitude if I can afford it and am worth it it’s mine no stopping me

Am so angry but so sad we all have battles to overcome some maybe of our own doing but most are at the hands of those who simply don’t give a Dam on who they tread on to get to their promised land

I know life is unfair at times but when you have hands tied behind your back and you still have to fight for yourself it’s hard and dare I say unjust

This week as last has been really tough pain and reactions from coming off my diabetic medication without warning because it can’t be sought in the UK and I guess other countries

My nurse has now been

desperately trying to find a temporary help untill it becomes available again in 2024 I know and far from the only one but what makes it harder is we don’t seem to matter to those who have the way and power even the will to make this right for all who are in a horrible state through no fault of our own

I once years ago was a self harmer without sharing the horror behind it

It was a relief to cause pain because it was better than the pain and anguish I was going through caused by those who felt they could hurt and destroy a person without care or even be able to continue their life without consequence

The symptoms I now get whilst awaiting results back from bloods is so distressing your body pumps out urine to get rid of sugar you then find unnatural craving and thirst for sweet foods and crave is a understatement

Those responsible for greed and avarice no not what they do

Or I hope they don’t because that would be worse case scenario

I apologise for ranting but I do so not just for me but for those who feel nobody cares about them or their health

Well I can’t change what others have done but I care very deeply how unjust it’s been and sorry if like me your suffering side effects of coming off a medication when you maybe like me have been on it for couple of years then as from 3 weeks ago went to collect and was told not available in the UK at all , specially if like me the usual slow prolonged medication is not suitable for your body and makes your symptoms worse it may not be the worse scenario but on top of overwhelming health problems we don’t need this so sending big hugs to those feeling pain and anxiety your not alone but I think we need to put our heads above the parapet and shout that we matter xxx

Again I don’t know but it must feel like a heroin user needing a fix or in my crazy thought a vampire if it existed needing blood (may seem funny ) but your head permanently throbs you can’t sleep because u need to pee or crave sugar you sweat my black dog days have come back with such avenges.it’s not wow is me or wanting pity I can imagine others are experiencing same or worse effects

Am so sorry for you all x